Sunday, August 27, 2006
i dont want to hide it from you but i just cant find the words to tell you . im scared everything will change . im scared our friendship will drift apart . but i somehow i wonder if you feel the same way too but i doubt so . i miss you so.
i love you boy ;
Do you ever think about me
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep
In the middle of the night when you awake
Are you calling out for me
Do you ever reminisce
I can't believe I'm acting like this
I know it's crazy
How I still can feel your kiss
It's been 1 year 7 months 2 days since you went away
I miss you so much
And I don't know what to say
I should be over you
I should know better
But it's just not the case
It's been 1 year 7 months 2 days since you went away
Do you ever ask about me
Do your friends still tell you what to do
Everytime the phone rings
Do you wish it was me callin' you
Do you still feel the same
Or has time put out the flame
I miss you
Is everything ok
It's hard enough just passing the time
When I can't seem to get you off my mind
And where is the good in goodbye
Tell me why, tell me why
a bittersweet symphony
the memories have shattered 4:46 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
soo .
didnt get to go out with patrick today . mm . another day then (:
sch sucked . i really didnt feel well . not sick . but just sad i guess .. mm. sigh .
instead went home after sch . charm called me , asked me to go out with her . i didnt want to go at first . kinda extra .. she kept insisting i'd go . soo . in the end decided to go . didnt really want to go . no mood . =(
suppose to meet at pp . when i reached pp . was looking for charm .then she smsed me that they left already . wasnt really angry . was sad already so didnt make any diff . mm . met them at cine . i think i saw ms annu ! she cancelled history class to go to cine . im going to suan her on monday ! oh . so i met them (charm , jun , nicole chong , chaiming , peiling , jiayu , xinning , nicki ) did i miss out anyone ? ; anyway . half of them were wearing striped shirts . and guess what i wore striped shirt too . looks retarded la . everyone so stripy . haha .
watched the american haunting ; not so bad movie . but didnt really have the mood . scary parts i couldnt be bothered to scream . sigh . my mood was really bad ytd .
after the movie . decided to go to marina square . walk walk . talk talk .
about 10 plus everyone went to nicole's house . left me charm n jiayu .
took mrt home .
home at 10.50 .
everythings fine now ;
the memories have shattered 5:39 PM
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
mm
i think you know already . im scared .
i just wished that msg you sent me was true .
i just wonder if it was .
dont want to keep my hopes too high .
please not again . please !
the last thing i need now is ignorance . =(
i need you ;
waiting for friday !
LOVES ;
the memories have shattered 9:32 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
today . mmm . kinda sucks somehow
body aching . back , legs and hands ..if your wondering why .
i was walking to the bus stop in the morning . i was waiting for all the cars to pass to i could cross the road . then when i was about to cross . a women on a bicycle banged me causing to me fly on to the road . the women was speed thats why . fell on my back . legs bleeding . hands swollen . =(
but still i had to go to sch . legs were bleeding when i got on the bus . was really in pain . the wound was burning =( . tried listening to music to forget about it . while walking to sch . was limping . used tissue to wipe the blood . very pain =((
sch was okay i guess . i didnt slp in class at all today . i didnt even sms in class today =D . i feel so guai ..
after sch . took bus to pp with manfen .
saw viceroy . haha . he looks like a retreched person . so sad la .. shirt tucked out . look depressed . sit down on the steps of the bus like the worlds going to end . haha . funny .
after that me n manfen went to eat . walk walk . saw lots of ppl today . haha . mm. after awhile thierry n viceroy went to find manfen for 55cents . haha . walk walk . kuangkai n joe came to find us . walk walk . about 4 plus went home .
my back is aching real bad now ! help =(
LOVES ;
the memories have shattered 5:50 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
weeee~
normal day . double english , double science .
i was slping during science lesson . i didnt know lah until he caught me slping =X . i thought he would scold ? but he didnt. hehe . he is kind when he is in the classroom .
recess . spend it in the class preparing for lit play , monkey's paw .
i was acting as hebert who was ''dead'' . easiest role . just knock on the door and make scary noises . yeah .
my group members were joanna and seowling . you ppl did a good job =D
soo . we had to act . so went to toilet to change into shorts and shirt . used eyeliner, powder and FAKE blood! i really looked scary ! oh my . my face was white white . we had to a scence which was more than 5 mins . we managed to achieve it =D .
overall . its a okay i guess .
khairul acted really good . really funny . espcially when his ''breast'' kept on falling . haha . ian looked like samurai ? haha . daming is in eldds so he was expected to be good in acting .
after lit . we went to wash up . the blood couldnt come out . was still red red . but wasnt so obvious . my eye liner was obvious though .
manfen's could take out the ''blood'' either . her face was like so rosy . haha . looked like 7 mth ghost =D . haha . damn funny . laugh like mad .
cme was boring . just copying stuff . then had to go for survey thingy so missed maths lesson =D .weeee. the questions kept on repeating . somehow they just changed a few words to make it sound different ? eg .
q. do you like your school ?
q. are you happy with your school ?
q.do you like going to school ?
q.do you really like your school ?
kinda ridiculous aint it ? haha . at least we didnt have to study (: . after that went back to class . did a ws for maths . then dismissed . stayed back for classmeeting .deciding on class tshirt. i dont like pink ! urgh . but who am i to say . no one would listen anyway .
after sch. stayed back with manfen jinlee wenn young n yan zhuan for awhile . talk talk . yan zhuan your going to be HER next target =D . weeeeeeeee. after that . went to pp to meet charm . to give her back her hp . but guess what when i reached there . i only had the charger ! i dont know where is the phone ! oh no . =(((( IM SORRY !!!! i shall find it tmr =)
went home . tired . i got a compo to finish . argh great . this sucks . i still have one paper to do too . i shall go bathe now .
LOVES ;
the memories have shattered 5:53 PM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
today kinda long day .
firstly . late for sch . waited for the bus for like 20min ? got on the bus at 6.50 . late late . actually when i got off the bus it was already 7.20 . so i walked slow slow . late liao mah . then while walking i heard the bell . but even if i did walk fast i would be late i think . coz i wont be an idiot and run to school . its retarded . no offence to ppl who run to sch la =D .
soo . was late . but they made us stay at the canteen while waiting for jaffar to finish talking . read book . after morning assembly . mr ken ask all the last comers to run 1 round of the field . ran . then he ask to run again . freak him man . i didnt wear shorts la . tsk .
after running did some retarded thing had mother tongue . was really tired . had some slp . haha . english . whole lesson smsing . i think ms fud knew . she kept asking me to answer questions . but all correct so she cnt say anything .
maths lesson . smsing too . haha . science also sms. haha . today send alot of sms . haha . i today than know yan zhuan damn clever la . all the answer all he give me . smart smart .
after sch . some sexuality talk . nitin (how ever you spell his name) sat close to me . he is freaking irritating .omg la . buay tahan . 1 question ask 10 times. madness .
after sch. borrow book from lib. was forced by mdm rose. mm . after that went to kfc to eat . so full . eat alot . haha . after that talk talk . saw da ben there . walked to bus stop . was crossing the overhead bridge . then saw ian . talked to him. then i missed my bus =( sad la . wait for 10 min . bus come . so tired. was smsing so didnt slp . came home .
on com . slpt awhile . play come . sms . im bored now . tmr got lit thingy ,sian have to bring clothes =( boring post today .
loves ;
the memories have shattered 11:10 PM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
now in lan shop . im super bored .
mmm . ytd was kinda fun =D
went to sch as usual . slept during art lesson . was kinda boring . mr tan was talking about few artist and that didnt really interest me . so fell asleep. mita was sick . sad sad . get well soon . during recess we (me manfen mita) went to the toilet . then i was so hot la . then mita still ask to off the fan . i think i would die of heat stroke before you do even though your sick .
after that had dnt. boring agn . suprisingly this was the first lesson in the whole year i didnt sleep . haha . checked our paper . i passed. got 20/30 . did practical . i hate using the acrylic machine. it sucks la . so hard to use . then mrs lee made it worse . almost saw my finger ?
maths lesson after that . leart dot digram . aftre that left to meet charm . took hp from her . saw karina . didnt see her for a long time . so decided to go her house .long time yea ? had lots of fun in the house . watched just my luck n high school musical . oh ya . ordered macs . they didnt give the right order . we ordered 2 mc spicy meals .but received 1 spicy burger 1 fries 2 ice lemon teas .
soo . karina called them . then she wanted to pay for the burger . coz we payed less .obviously i complained until we got it free. haha . not bad right=D
after that was high high . dancing with karina . haha . we were like super hyper . funny funny . charm was either on the phone or the com the whole time . tsk . ANTI SOCIAL .mm charm you are selfish . you havent blow my nose ! hahaha . and who keeps panodol in the fridge ?
went home . charm made me miss my bus . how kind. hmmphh . reached home . did nth much . was kinda sad . hear this song . its really nice
goodbye by airsupply .
later going to esplanade to watch fireworks =D will be crowded .
oh well .
i just can't live a lie anymore
LOVES
the memories have shattered 1:45 PM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
today ..
national day eve ..
had to wake up at 4 to rush to airport by 5 . 5 suprised my cousin . would you really think i would say goodbye without seeing you off ? we did lost of great things together .smoking hooka got you high .when you got drunk and i shall not reveal what you did =D. haha . many many other stuff
i guess i wont see you for another two years . but we will keep in touch yea ? i think you are still in the plane now . 22 hours flight ! HAHA ! have fun in sch . dont flirt so much k . haha . miss you both =D
soo..
in sch .
we had national day celebrations . not bad i guess. our class won 1st for the telematch ! yeah . mdm rose is super cute la .haha .
after sch out with nicole . parkway-bubbletea , tm . watched click . heard a familiar voice in the cinema . loud loud 1 . and guess what . i was right . nadene was in front of me . she talks super loud . tsk tsk . bet with her $2 i wont cry . and i didnt lor ! soooo . NADENE YOU DONT CHEAPO . PLEASE GIVE ME MY $2 . HAHA . nicole was like waterworks la .
after the movie . met sharmaine , linken they all . walk walk awhile . talked about some stuff . was kinda bored coz i dont know many pple they . im not anti social . i did say hello . luckily patrick called me . haha . got company .
took bus home . some pple just make me dulan . broadrick very fun to say meh ? freak la . i say fuck you . you scared le . stupid morons . home . linken called . sharm hp with me . they came to my house . pass hp .
farah just called. ask me to meet her tmr . but i said i got sch ! i feel so retarded . haha . i forgot tmr is national day . oops .
anyway . pple who i rarely talk to are asking if im okay . im fine pple . dont worry . its kinda weird when ppl all of a suddenly ask if im sad . but im touched too knowing that ppl do care =D . love.
few more ours till national day! weee .
LOVES ;
the memories have shattered 9:05 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006
mm.really down these few days .
i never expected you to lie to me . you the only guy i trusted. hais . i guess games are more fun. you left me waiting for you while you were playing games . that really hurts .
i'd do anything for you yet you would just give everything up to play games . hais . that really hurt lots . you hurt me one too many times . please dont hurt me again .
im not angry at you . i told you i wouldnt be but somehow im really sad . i dont know why im feeling this. i think im falling for you once again . just wished we could be like before . we'd talk from morning till night . laugh at you and stupid things that happen during your childhood . suaning each other .owing each other treats .
everytime i talk to you . i just wished you knew how much i loved you . but a part of me just kept it from you . im scared to ruin our friendship . wondering if you felt the same way too . but i doubt so .
i love you
the memories have shattered 8:24 PM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
hais .
today. sch was alright i guess . we had maths test . hope can score to pull up my previous test . had green storm thingy but i couldnt watch as i needed to go for netball .
sad . anyway . our class came in 2nd . not bad =D
after assembly went to pasir ris sec for our match =D . B div lost but C div WON!! .yay . the girl next to me keep talking to herself while playing. kinda weird. she suddenly scream . so scary . someor so loud . haha . my left ear now cnt hear properly . tsk .
soo . the score at the end of the game was 24 - 19 (:
we won ! WE WON ! woohooo !
oh . lydia i owe you a treat .
after match . went to sch took our things . waited for bus 10 for about 30 min? so long la . tired tired someor . reached home at 6.50 i think . late late . my fever is getting worse . oh no .
reached home . parents quarrel . bro walked out of the house . i cant stand this . why do you care about money so much . somehow i agree with him . you say your going to leave tmr ? wth . this is all crap . dad didnt even do anything.why dont you go and work and earn money yourself ! arghhh
life is just crap !
LOVES ;
the memories have shattered 9:10 PM
